I had this idea of love growing up. Maybe it was influenced by what I saw in movies and books.
I’d fall in love with my wife, and we’d just have this effortless relationship. Maybe there’d be children. Or a nice home with a yard.
I don’t know exactly what I imagined. But it definitely didn’t include blood on my bathroom floor. And it didn’t include a man, either.
I’ve talked a lot about how I fell in love with Garrett as he cared for me through that mysterious illness. But there are hidden moments and memories that seem to come out only in certain interviews.
Like the host unlocks a piece of me that I had forgotten long ago.
Andrea of Open Up & Speak was that host.
In this shorter, 30-min interview, she somehow got me to look deeper into my own story about love.
We talked about how unnatural our first kiss felt. Ways we explored intimacy. What it was like to have millions of people discussing our sex life.
What unconditional love means—or can mean. Is it possible that love can make you explore parts of yourself you didn’t know where in there?
I’m in love with Garrett for a million reasons. And him being a man is just one part of him. One part I’ve come to love alongside the rest. But how could I not have tried if just one thing was out of place?
No matter our expectations or rules, at the end of the day, we all have one decision to make in any moment: to move further toward or away from love.
Love isn’t what I expected it to be. Nothing about this journey has been what I’d envisioned. And it definitely doesn’t look like the movies.
But there’s no denying that it’s love. Unconditionally.
Listen to the whole interview up above, and let me know what you think.