I’m really sensitive. To everything.
I sneeze when I eat chocolate. I’ll go into a full-blown allergy attack if I drink a lot of alcohol and then stop. I get digestive issues from gluten and sometimes dairy. I get headaches from sugar—and any intense amount of energy work.
I’m really sensitive.
Only I didn’t know it.
I remember when I was little, I used to get bad stomach aches. So I went to the doctor, and she’d ask me about what I’d been eating and how stressed I felt.
I didn’t feel particularly stressed, so I told her I wasn’t. And she said something that I haven’t forgotten since:
“Sometimes we don’t know we’re really stressed because we hold it inside and hide it from ourselves.”
It hit me like a ton of bricks then. And now.
Because, for most of my life, I was sensitive but didn’t know it. In fact, I actively tried to numb it and tone it down. It was always “too much” for me.
I’d psych myself up with fun music when I didn’t want to go out with friends. I’d drink a lot of alcohol when I wasn’t particularly happy. I’d eat a lot of sugar to not feel my emotions. I’d keep myself really busy to not realize I didn’t love my job.
My entire life, I got really, really good at dealing with my sensitivities by avoiding them. By not have to feel them.
Because I felt everything. So much deeper than anyone around me. I was “too emotional.” I was always “overreacting.”
So I taught myself at a young age how to shut it all down. And I became a master of numbing.
Junk food, busyness, alcohol, sugar, Netflix, you name it. I was so good at not feeling my feelings that, truthfully, I didn’t even know I was having any emotional responses to things.
We visionaries are shockingly good at numbing out our feelings. Because we’re incredibly sensitive. We can feel things deeper than those around us.
We feel see, feel, touch, taste, and smell more of the world than others. It’s how we envision a new future that isn’t here yet.
And then we’re told that we’re “too much” and “not enough.” We’re immediately taught not to trust our emotions. We’re told we get “hysterical” and “over-emotional.” We’re told we need to “get our emotions in check” and “change our mindset.”
We learn that expressing—and even feeling—our emotions is unsafe. It’ll never make us successful.
We just have to conquer our emotions to fit in and make it in this world.
So we shut them down.
And the irony here is that our sensitivities are our genius. So, every day, we’re intentionally shutting down our genius. Without even realizing it.
Think about it—when someone tells me I have a sensitive stomach, they often mean a “weak stomach.” But there’s a big difference there. I think of all my stomach has had to endure throughout life. There’s nothing weak about it.
It can just sense more. It can feel things stronger than anyone else can. Just like an expert in paintings can see and feel things I can’t. Just like an expert in relationship counseling can see and feeling dynamics in a relationship that I may not be able to.
Genius senses more. That’s what makes it genius.
And there’s a reason visionaries are so sensitive. Because we are literally sensing more of the world around us. We’re seeing things others cannot. That’s how we see visions that we want to create in the first place.
To shut down our sensitivities is to shut down our genius.
And we do it all the time.
I’ve spent my life shaming and blaming my sensitivities, and then begging to feel powerful and worthy and special—all the while not realizing that the very thing I thought was ruining my life was the thing I was seeking.
If your stomach is sensitive, it means you can sense more there—always trust your gut reactions. If your head is sensitive to headaches, it means you can sense more there—see what impressions you pick up.
If we want to discover our unique genius, we have to lean into our sensitivities. That’s where our genius lies.
But, a lot of times, we don’t actually want our genius. I can tell you firsthand from doing this work for years that fully, fully knowing yourself means you have to make some hard decisions.
I’ve let go of thousands and thousands of dollars of clients. And I’ve let go of friendships and relationships. And I’ve asked for what I needed in other situations when it felt terrifying to do so. And I left a high-paying job. And I took crazy risks in my business.
Leaning into our sensitivities means we see, know, and feel more. And some of what we experience isn’t exactly something we want to deal with.
Because living in alignment with our genius is about breaking free from the chains of someone else’s rules. And starting to live by our own.
And that takes immense amounts of courage.
Don’t mistake me here. To be a visionary is to be a pioneer. To lead the world into a place only your genius can see.
It takes courage and guts and every goddamn drop of sensitivity you can muster up.
But you’re a visionary. You are so much more than you could ever possibly know.
There’s a reason I won’t do any work one-on-one. It’s because visionaries need support. Immense, immense layers of support. We need to hold each other in community. We need to encourage each other when we’re afraid. We need to inspire each other and remind each other why we do this.
Somewhere deep inside, you know your genius. You’ve always known your genius. In your strong reactions, in your terrifying emotional fits, in your annoying sensitivities.
With courage and conviction, you can choose to step into your genius. You can choose to be a genius. You can choose to bring your vision forward into the world.
Like the visionary that you are.
Questions for Reflection:
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Are you so goddamn sensitive, too?
— Are you sensitive? Do you feel things deeply and “take things personally”? Does your body react strongly to some foods or smells or substances? Have you ever been accused of “overreacting” or “not being able to take a joke”?
— Have you ever numbed your feelings with food, alcohol, or Netflix? Have you ever distrusted your emotions or started a sentence, “I know I shouldn’t be so upset, but…”? Have you ever thought you’re just too damn sensitive?
— What if your sensitivities are your genius? What if the reason you’re sensitive is because you’re a visionary? What if leaning into your sensitivities will actually help you step more fully into your genius and vision?